Its time for just another random blog post. Yea I know no one wants to hear about the day to day of an 18 year old girl but I don't give a fuck. Lately I've been watching a show called Sekaiichi Hatsukoi. It's a shonen-ai (yaoi-boys love- or guy on guy romance for those of you who aren't nerds like me) and its been giving me some great ideas for my story 'Together' ( a next generation Harry Potter yaoi fan fiction by yours truly). I hope you go to wattpad.com/princessxprincess and read a bit for me mabie vote and fan me and if you like it comment tell me who you are on here and ill look u up and leave you somthing ;) im about to start a new one so i hope you read it too! well ttfn i will write again later!

This hospital,
these doctors,
this place, i know it well.
too many times have i been here.
how many ways will i know this pain?
first my mother,
now my father,
dying.
right in front of me.
this pain is the kind that kills
this pain is the kind that makes us crazy
first my mother
now my father.
i wait on the news
although i already know it.
"shes going to die"
i cried for weeks.
i dread this news
here he comes.
my heart pounds
"Hes going to be just fine."
silently i thank God for my good fortune
not this time
"Thank you"
i silently pray

(BTW my dad really is in the hospital please pray for him!)

The scars on my body
are because you love me
these scars on my heart
are because i love you
the blood in my hands
is because you loved another
the blood on my sheets
is because you took another
the holes in the yard
are because you wanted another

Recently i have realized that as i get older my intrests have changed drasticly i have gone from loving Barbies as a toy to wanting to collect the older ones. I have gone from wanting to ride horses to wanting to ride the cowboy ;) when i was little i watched cartoons about kid stuff now i watch them about little girls who are trained assassins. And i have knoticed that this year all i want is electronics and books. ipod touch and a laptop and a shit load of books. i got a bass last year and all three ps2 games for Kingdom Hearts :) yea in a total nerd. by the way my head hurts :"( and im now SINGLE :D

Sitting here we wait on life to fill us
to make us whole
to comfort us and tell us it is all going to be okay
our bad habits
our bad relationships
our bad days
we are a broken people
separated by all that we think is bringing us together
by all we want in life
greed
hatred
lust
false hope
no hope for the fast approaching future
yet we still wait for life to find us
a life that was never ment to be