It feels like he's trying to cut me out of his life. Although it wouldn't be the first time he's done this. It feels as if all he wants from me is for me to show him my body and be there when he's bored. I wish that I had more value than that. I guess that if that is all the good I am to anyone I should just take my lot in life and try to make the best of it. I am nothing more than a toy for a spoiled little rich kid. Sometimes I wish it would all just end for me. Living, if you can even call what I do living, just seems like a chore. A chore that I am thoroughly sick of. I don't feel the need to live anymore. Even my scene of self preservation has gone down the drain. I need to see a shrink.